It was 12:40 PM when I decided to go shop at walmart with my 1 year old kid. I fed him his milk, all dressed and put him in his car seat. All was fine, reached walmart safely and then did something terrible in my entire life. I locked the keys, my purse and my kid in the car. No no.. I didn't leave the keys in the fob, I took it along with me, and while unbuckling my kid's seat belt, I pressed the lock button on my keys and dropped in my purse (which I normally do.. and now I know that's not right). The car next us was backing out, so I had to partially close the door but instead I slammed it and went the other side to remove him from his car seat, not knowing that I 'locked' the car before getting out. When I pulled, it was then, it struck me that I locked the car and the keys inside the car. I... was in a state of shock. I asked the gentleman who was passing by for a phone, but he did not understand what I said earlier. So, his answer was 'I don't have one.'
So I had to rush the other side, stop the lady from backing out. She was very generous to help me and handed her phone. I made a quick call to my husband (who was at work 25 miles away) to help me with AAA insurance. No luck, it went to voicemail. I was looking around for help.. feeling helpless. The lady understood and told me to go to walmart and check if someone could help while she was watching over my kid in the car.
I literally rushed and asked 2 guys, no luck. I went inside and said, and immediately another person came and made a call to the police. While I was waiting for him to come back with an answer, the guy next to me, started making me feel guilty.. All he kept saying was, 'its so hot today and it will be even more hotter in the car, the kid will cry... how .. how did you do this?.. its hot.. he will cry.' I know that my kid gonna cry, but I was not in a state to hear all that. I kept waiting for an answer, and listening to this guy, feeling guilty and bad and blaming myself for doing this, tears started rolling.
At distance I heard, the guy say 'the fire department is on-line, they wanna talk to you. Go to customer service desk.' I ran like a mad bull. The lady on the phone kept asking me questions 'are you the mom? Is the kid inside? how old is he? What make is your car? Will you be there near your car when the fire department comes in?' I kept saying YES YES YES. Rushed to the car and at this moment, I couldn't speak properly.. I was stuttering.. Is he - Is he cr-crying? The lady coolly said, no he is doing just fine. Soon in minutes, the fire engine came and everyone's attention was on me.
There were so many people flocked around me, the office got confused and asked 'whose car is it?' I raised my hand and came forward. He asked me questions like 'are you the mom? since how long the kid is in the car? etc.' They started their work, trying to unlock before they decide to break the window. More people stopped by and were asking other's what happened and the message passed on something like this 'she locked the car, the keys are inside and her kid too!' In their eyes I looked like one of those mom, who went shopping and locked her kid in the car. Whatever they thought, I was least bothered. My only focus was to get him out of the car asap!
Three officers tried and one of them said they have to break the window and asked me which one do they break? Without thinking much about the cost of the replacement window, I said the passenger side. The other gentleman said, that would cost you lot, why don't you go with the rear end one. I just nodded yes. And then my heart broke when the officer saw my kid and said he started crying. When I saw him cry I couldn't hold onto my emotions. I was like get him outta there asap. I don't care about the cost. Soon the office started to put duct tape onto the window when out of the blue the other office says, give me 30 secs. I almost got it. He tried and tried and finally he opened. I rushed and unbuckled and took him out of the baked car!
I never saw my kid cry that bad. He was all soaked up in sweat and his voice was all... well he was shivering. They took my address and my licence number and left. I stayed with my kid in the car, fed him some water and held him in my arms until he was quite. I went and bought which I wanted to buy and walmart while my kid was having fun walking in the store checking out gal's dresses! Everyone who worked there started asking 'is he OK? he seems to be okay now!'
Though the whole thing lasted for about 30 mins I guess, on the way back home, I couldn't stop crying.. how can I be so foolish? How can I be so careless? Am I a bad mom?
Its Saturday and its girls night out. Who you think is coming over to my place. Well, I am supposed to meet the sleeping beauty this night, but somehow she didn't show up so far and so here I am waiting for her endlessly with droopy eyes hoping that she will show up sometime soon before its dawn.
Oh! dear sleeping beauty, you better come soon before my kid wakes up. I cannot hear my husband snoring, or some bird chirping near my window. Instead, I want to hear your beautiful voice, singing a beautiful lullaby, to which I can go deep into the sleep.
When will you show up, dear? Its 2:15 am already. I am dying to meet you I am dying to meet you.
If you can keep your head when all about you Are losing theirs and blaming it on you, If you can trust yourself when all men doubt you But make allowance for their doubting too, If you can wait and not be tired by waiting, Or being lied about, don't deal in lies, Or being hated, don't give way to hating, And yet don't look too good, nor talk too wise:
If you can dream--and not make dreams your master, If you can think--and not make thoughts your aim; If you can meet with Triumph and Disaster And treat those two impostors just the same; If you can bear to hear the truth you've spoken Twisted by knaves to make a trap for fools, Or watch the things you gave your life to, broken, And stoop and build 'em up with worn-out tools:
If you can make one heap of all your winnings And risk it all on one turn of pitch-and-toss, And lose, and start again at your beginnings And never breath a word about your loss; If you can force your heart and nerve and sinew To serve your turn long after they are gone, And so hold on when there is nothing in you Except the Will which says to them: "Hold on!"
If you can talk with crowds and keep your virtue, Or walk with kings--nor lose the common touch, If neither foes nor loving friends can hurt you; If all men count with you, but none too much, If you can fill the unforgiving minute With sixty seconds' worth of distance run, Yours is the Earth and everything that's in it, And--you'll be a Man, my son!
Sometimes I wonder, do you need a special day to express your love towards your mom or how she makes a difference in your lives. I never thought about this all my life. As a kid, I never knew what Mother's Day was or that there was a special day dedicated to the mothers from across the globe. When it got popular like Valentines Day, I just went with the crowd, buy a cute or meaningful card and flowers to my mom. I never took it to heart or so seriously as I do now. Then, I did all that so that I could answer to my friends. It was more like a prestige amongst my friends. Yes, there were times when I forgot and make up the next day with a cute card which said " You rock mom. Happy mother's Day."
Even when I was in college, I gave more importance to Valentines' day and why wouldn't I. I was studying in the prestigious college and guys asking you for a date was like as if the spotlight is on you amongst many others. Sure it was fun.
Today, I'm in my mid 20's and a mom for the first time, I realize the importance of being a mother and this day. Until then you take her for granted. Sure you would go to her when you are hurt, when you got highest marks in school, you please her when you want to go to a movie with friends and let her take the blame when your father scolds you, it's endless! For anything, you approach her. She listens patiently to your boring conversation, even if its the 100th time you are saying, she gives you moral support when nobody believes in you, she is your best friend when everyone befriends you, she cries when you get hurt.She cares for you and I think she deserves a day off and so on this day, I want to tell my mother Thank You for being there all the times and I Love You mom.You Rock! and this time I mean it.
Too many thoughts running on my mind. For a minute I'm thinking about how to get a job and then again..in which field. With the given situation in the market, I don't know whether or not I will get a job. I tired in the finance field, but who would hire me with experience less than an year when highly experienced guys out there are fighting for that job. How can I out stand them? The only job offers I get are the marketing one's, especially from insurance companies. I like marketing jobs, don't get me wrong, but most of them are only commission and bonus based. I was excited when I got a call from one of the insurance company. It was a 1 -2 year training program and then they'd help me set up my own agent office. Sounds great right?
It did sound awesome, but... ah! I was stuck there - but what if ... I don't make much money. There are so many agents from the same insurance company in the same area and how the hell would I sustain in that competition. All these thoughts kept me occupied and for the first time in my life I felt I made a mistake by not even trying it.
Times change. Before I got pregnant and all, I took everything as a challenge and wanted to try everything and anything.. let's risk it! was my attitude then, but now, oh boy! its totally opposite... you have a family which you need to take care of, an added constant worry. But should I put that as an excuse for not even giving it a try?
Now, I just want to land up in a 9-5 job, with a standard meal with some dessert now and then..
I was watching America's funniest home videos the other night and I saw this video, a kid who wants to have a bath. I don't get bored no matter how many times I watch this video. Can't stop laughing.. so cute!
The recent Satyam scam has left people think, discuss and ofcourse complain. Though this is the first time in india, we have seen companies in the US go through similar situations. It is quite unfortunate that this has happened at a crucial juncture.
This had such an effect on my cousins working in Satyam. Touchwood, they are safe, but they are worried. To let go off the pressure, we decided to come up with something creative. One of my cousin came up with a poem.
p.s: do not take this seriously
Raju Raju Yes baba Cheating us No baba Telling Lies No baba Open the balance sheet HA HA HA
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Raju Raju sat on the wall Raju Raju had a great fall Balance sheet died Shareholders cried Raju Raju made a fraud
I came across an article today in deccan chronicle newspaper which read wife must be respected. I said to myself what a timing. For a long time I was thinking to write something similar, hope I will sometime soon. But for now, all you married guys or soon to be, go ahead, read and make a note of it. > Don’t take your wife for granted. Do compliment her when she cooks well, looks after your home well…
> Give her the respect she deserves, especially in front of others. Never tick her off or make it seem she’s an airhead.
> Don’t let your mother get on her case and make her life miserable. Petty, small issues can be ignored, but when it gets out of hand, do damage control in the beginning itself. This doesn’t mean you should be rude to your mother, but tactfully handle her and explain how important your wife is to you, just like the mother is to you and how you are the one who is very upset with the fights.
> It doesn’t matter how much or little you earn, whatever the amount, share it with your wife. This gives a sense of belonging. Never say ‘my’ money.
> Extra marital affairs are a strict no-no. It will wreck your marriage and neither will you end up being happy with the other woman. Remember, the wife is the Lakshmi of the house, you make her cry, keep her unhappy, ill-treat her… your home will never be a happy place.
A happy marriage is where both husband and wife are happy with each other.
Everyone has a different perspective on happiness. For all of us, happiness is when you achieve your dream/goal. And that doesn't happen overnight. One has to work hard, face the highs and lows, overcome rough paths, have a steady focus etc whatever you have to do in order to achieve that one big dream! right?
So, in other words, you are not happy till you achieve it!
Well, that's what my husband had to say when I asked him why are you sad all the time? why can't you be happy. He would say, I can be happy only when I reach the destination. I was surprised at his answer. I agree that one is happy when they accomplish their goals!
On the contrary, I hate being sad. I just can't be. Even if I couldn't achieve my goals or reach the destination, I try not to forget to put a smile on my face. I counsel myself that may be there's a better route. Instead of thinking too much and cry till the tears dry, I try to look at other options.
I always tell everyone to have an optimistic attitude! It's true, we put all our efforts to make that one dream come true. Its good to have a steady focus but that should not be the only motive.
So people, my only advice to all of you
Be happy. Let happiness rule over you and not sadness.
And don't forget that happiness lies in the journey, not in reaching the destination.
The new song krazzy from the movie Krazzy 4, an item song by shahrukh khan where he dresses up like MJ has been creating waves. Everybody seems to be going crazy, especially the kids! But only few of them understood what the lyrics are. So, for those who want to rhyme along, here are the lyrics.
p.s: you are welcome to correct if any mistakes in the lyrics
heads up yo…
krazzy with a k… thst’s the way… say k… r… a… zee… zee… y… do it anyway… just put the k… in k… r… a… zee… zee… y…
break free gotta get some chutti tod do deewaron ko break free ab kholo muthi… chheen lo duniya se more…
break free gotta get some chutti tod do deewaron ko break free ab kholo muthi… chheen lo duniya se more…
krazzy with a k… thst’s the way… say k… r… a… zee… zee… y… do it anyway… just put the k… in k… r… a… zee… zee… y…
heads up yo…
i don’t play mild…i just go wild… like there’s no tomorrow… so get with me… and you will see… kya hai crazy deewano…
you gotta rule… yeh na tu bhool… ki tu hai cool oh yaaron… zara dil khol ke mujhko bol… what’s in your soul batado…
so if you wanna… yeah… yeah.. dil hai deewanana… yeah… yeah… 1 and 2 and 3 and 3… swing it with me doston…
break free gotta get some chutti tod do deewaron ko break free ab kholo muthi… chheen lo duniya se more…
dont’t mess with me coz i’m crazy anyhting you say baby that don’t faze me can nobody stop me now cause i break free lets go wild
this world will kill… your beating dil… magar himmat na haaro… you got to prove… you got the groove… zara taaqat dikhado…
you gotta sing… and do your thing… jo kehta wo dil gaao… dikhake smile… show me your style… churao dil hazaron…
so if you wanna… yeah… yeah.. dil hai deewanana… yeah… yeah… 1 and 2 and 3 and 3… swing it with me doston…
break free gotta get some chutti tod do deewaron ko break free ab kholo muthi… chheen lo duniya se more…
break free gotta get some chutti tod do deewaron ko break free ab kholo muthi… chheen lo duniya se more…
krazzy with a k… thst’s the way… say k… r… a… zee… zee… y… do it anyway… just put the k… in k… r… a… zee… zee… y…
I can never forget that day for it was not just a special day but a memorable one.
Too many feelings in those few minutes.
Excitement, Happiness, Fear, Anxiety, Speechless and what not!!
There are many such moments in my life but this one took my breath away. I was overwhelmed with joy. I was all blushing. My face was all red and did not even notice the tears rolling down my cheeks. There was a question mark on my face when I looked myself in the mirror. It was only after few minutes, I came to my senses, keeping fingers crossed and glanced at it once more. This time with confidence, I marched towards the living room where Uday was sitting on the floor, gazing at the laptop screen, chatting with his colleagues, working on his project work. I called him once and stood still beside the sofa like a statue not uttering another word. He was puzzled when he looked at me, but the expressions on my face (which I could not hide it) gave a hint.
It was then I uttered those two words "I'm Pregnant."
He was shocked or rather surprised I must say. He stopped typing. For those few seconds, there was pin drop silence. And the first word he said was "really?" I nodded my head in approval and replied back saying "yes."
That was it! He put his laptop aside and came towards me. We both looked at each other, hugged and sat in silence thinking about the new member, a kid (apart from Uday and me) who would change our lives!
Its been a while since i postested anything here.. I guess I made a similar post some time ago.. anyways.. I will try not to brag about why I am not blogging or whatever.
Recently, Uday complied some songs.. and I'd be happy if you listened the songs and make recomendations. Listen as many times, tell your friends and if you like it you can purchase the entire album or your favorite song.
If you click on the link above it will take you to the artist profile page.
Enjoy the songs! My favorite pick is KanZaman.. love it! To Listen More of his compilations check it out below.